New Beginnings…

At least I hope so.

There’s times when I sit here for hours, with a few tabs open, and wonder what the hell I’m doing.

I should be writing.  And I have every intention on doing just that.  But here’s the thing, how can I get my funk back to writing (or at least finish what I’ve started) when I have no idea where I want either story to go or to end?

I find myself going to the closet bookstore and looking through the shelves to see what’s out there.  What is getting people’s attention.  And what people will actually buy to want to read.

I managed to publish one book back in 2013 (and a cliffhanger at that) and I have two books that I’ve managed to get at least a quarter of the way started.  But now I’ve found myself stuck.  How do other authors do it?  To keep their focus and to spit out two or three books in a year?  I can hardly manage to get one done.

Other authors I follow on twitter will actually say that it’s not an easy life.  And I believe them.  When I started this journey, I was imagining myself writing book after book, becoming a best seller, living down south somewhere (because the snow and cold is really getting on my nerves), and living the best life I could imagine.

In reality, I’m sitting at my kitchen table (because I have no office space), eating smarties and drinking a glass of chocolate milk, tweeting with friends and wondering what the hell I’m doing?

I know I can’t focus on being the next JK Rowling.  The best I can do is just be the best ME I can be.  And how can I really do that when I have no freaking idea who I am?

Whoa!!!  That was deep. LOL

I guess the only thing I can do for myself is to make a list of things I want to accomplish for each day.  Even if it’s just being able to just get out of bed.  It’s anything that will make me feel accomplished.

So here’s to new beginnings.  To writing more, and tweeting (or facebooking) less.  If possible.

Because let’s face it, with the end of 2019 just around the corner, I want to be able to say on January 1st that I’ve done something productive with my life this year.

Thank you for popping by.

Until next time,

K ❤

More Procrastinating, Less Writing

So apparently I done the complete opposite since the last post. Typical.  LOL.

I swear I need supervision when I say I’m going to do something.  Oh look!!! Shiny thing.

You would think that I’d get things done that I need to get done with the extra time I’ve got lately.  But ohhhhhh noooooo.  I’m gonna just sit back and do nothing.

I feel bad too as I have 2 projects 1/4 of the ways written, but no motivation to finish.  How to real authors do it?  Do they have times where they are just not sure if writing is for them? Or do they just carry on and hope and pray that what they wrote doesn’t suck?

I’m at the point where I know where I want the 2 stories to end up, but it’s the process.

I also have to look at myself as an author and stop thinking of what it would be like to be like someone else.  We each have our own writing styles, frustratingly enough, I have yet to find my niche.  I hope to find it soon.

My biggest distractions are Twitter and Facebook.  Mainly Twitter to keep up with what the latest news is with Shadowhunters.  That’s a whole other blog in itself. 😀

And on that note, I’m leaving it at that.

Until next time.

Karen ❤

More writing, Less procrastinating

You know when you’ve been submerged into the world of the Wi-Fi when you have nothing accomplished with what books you have started and are just left there in limbo, waiting for you to get off you’re arse (or in this case to sit on it) and start writing to get your projects finished to be published.

And I’m bad at procrastinating. Especially when I’m so bored that I know what I should be doing, but end up either sitting in front of the TV watching something on NetFlix, or I’m just surfing around the internet wasting time.

In the end, nothing really gets accomplished, and you’re beating yourself up for not doing what you’ve been telling yourself what you need to do.

So why do I do it to myself?  Sucker for punishment I guess is the first thought that comes to mind.  The other is that I feel I’m not that successful as a writer.

Yes, I’ve had friends buy my book.  And yes they have given me good reviews on it, and for that I’m deeply grateful.  But they say that it’s that one bad review will hit you the most.  Even though I’ve had friends tell me that you’re gonna get that one person who’s going to be an a$$hole.  That I need to look past that one hater and see it as what you have succeeded at.

To write and tell a story as only I could tell it.

In the end, it’s me putting myself out there.  Something I’m not used to doing. Bringing attention to myself when I’m used to making people focus on real talented people.  I don’t think I’m there yet.

For one, I really suck at promoting myself. LOL!!  I was never the type of person to make people notice me.  I’m usually the one who would sit in the corner and be silent.

But if I’m to make it in this hard crazy world of being an author, I need to get my tooch in gear and seek out a publishing company and/or agent who would be willing to take a chance on me.  I have so many ideas, but it’s to stay focused and on course that I find lacking.

I have to give thanks to my family though.  They put up with my constant “one more minute” when writing my first book.  Now I will have to do it again to finish off the 2 books I have started already.  And I do need to get them done before I start any others.

I think what I might start doing is to write daily in here.  Just to keep me on track with my writing (and to keep me focused), because we all know by now how easily distracted I am. LOL!!

Anyway, in closing (which I surprise myself that I had this much to say in one sitting, lol), I want to say thank you to anyone who’s still following this blog.  When I haven’t made a post in a while, I forget how to get back on here. 😀

I think I fixed that problem.  For now.

Anyway,, until next time.

Much love

K ❤