At least I hope so.
There’s times when I sit here for hours, with a few tabs open, and wonder what the hell I’m doing.
I should be writing. And I have every intention on doing just that. But here’s the thing, how can I get my funk back to writing (or at least finish what I’ve started) when I have no idea where I want either story to go or to end?
I find myself going to the closet bookstore and looking through the shelves to see what’s out there. What is getting people’s attention. And what people will actually buy to want to read.
I managed to publish one book back in 2013 (and a cliffhanger at that) and I have two books that I’ve managed to get at least a quarter of the way started. But now I’ve found myself stuck. How do other authors do it? To keep their focus and to spit out two or three books in a year? I can hardly manage to get one done.
Other authors I follow on twitter will actually say that it’s not an easy life. And I believe them. When I started this journey, I was imagining myself writing book after book, becoming a best seller, living down south somewhere (because the snow and cold is really getting on my nerves), and living the best life I could imagine.
In reality, I’m sitting at my kitchen table (because I have no office space), eating smarties and drinking a glass of chocolate milk, tweeting with friends and wondering what the hell I’m doing?
I know I can’t focus on being the next JK Rowling. The best I can do is just be the best ME I can be. And how can I really do that when I have no freaking idea who I am?
Whoa!!! That was deep. LOL
I guess the only thing I can do for myself is to make a list of things I want to accomplish for each day. Even if it’s just being able to just get out of bed. It’s anything that will make me feel accomplished.
So here’s to new beginnings. To writing more, and tweeting (or facebooking) less. If possible.
Because let’s face it, with the end of 2019 just around the corner, I want to be able to say on January 1st that I’ve done something productive with my life this year.
Thank you for popping by.
Until next time,