From an early age, you are drawn to a certain bunch of people who usually stay life-long friends. Even when you graduate from high school, you all manage to keep in touch. Well, for most people I’d like to think this to be true. And for the most part it is. But for me,,, I’ve had my disappointments time and time again.
To say that I have trust issues is putting it mildly. I’ve been so many people’s scapegoat for their own misfortunes instead of owning up to their faults just to make themselves look like angels in their family’s eyes, that they didn’t care how it would make me look to those who knew us. Mind you, only one friend ever came forward and apologized to me. I’ll never get that from the other.
Then there was that website I used to volunteer write for. Longest 2 years of my life. Sometimes I feel that I wasted my time on there, but then I wouldn’t have found out that I can write. And write well. Being dyslexic was hard during my school days. And sometimes it still is. Diagnosing myself with the problem at age 14 was the biggest light bulb moment of my life. I no longer felt stupid. That there was a reason for a lot of things.
I actually wrote and published my first ever book. And yes,, to those of you who have a copy of it,, I’m still working on the sequel. LOL. It’s something I thought I’d never ever do. But with the love and support of awesome friends, I done it!!
Only one friend growing up, that knew me very well, was there to support me. She knows who she is. There’s no words I can write to let her know how much I appreciated her standing by my side. OK, well, not literally standing next to me,, that’s impossible as she’s on the mainland, LOL. But you get my point. 🙂
All the other friends are those I met later in life, and most of them are online friends. People I’ve never met, and may never get to meet in person either, but I know they’ve been there for me every step of the way.
And even like the past, being drawn to certain people, it does happen again. But this time it has a different feeling. It’s doesn’t feel like those who are only pretending to be your friend, this time it’s with people who genuinely care.
I’ve made friends with the most unlikeliest of people thanks to Facebook (and later on Twitter). We’ve cried together, laughed together, even laughed until we cried together. They are the friendships that I’ll hold dear.
So being one of the biggest Lord of the Rings and The Hobbit geek out there,, I’ll leave you with this quote from Bilbo. “I don’t know half of you half as well as I should like; and I like less than half of you half as well as you deserve.”
Until next time.